I realized over the weekend that it would be best if I just stay close to my intimate circle. It’s not that I don’t want to gain new friends or expand my social sphere. It’s just going to be for a moment, or as soon as I can re-explain to myself the meaning of forgiveness and redefine what trust is.
I also realized from my musings at the beach in a stormy, gloomy Sunday afternoon that nowadays, I am strongest and bravest when I am alone. I open myself to vulnerability (and pain) when people are close to me. I reckon my strength does not come with courage lately. I guess something in me has changed and I don’t like it.
I used to think that I can be strong yet vulnerable.
There is no room for any form of weakness now.
I must be fierce.
So I will fiercely love. So I will fiercely live.
I will hold my loved-ones closer. I would not seek any more or go on looking for any less.
For now this is the only way I know how to manage.
I know I am right, and this will keep me strong.
listening to: the weekend happenings on replay