Two weeks ago, Carlo woke me up with an sms that was enough for me to get up and swear the rest of my goodnight’s sleep to hell.
“Saw her blog. She’s happy. She says she’s completely forgiven you and that she prays for you everyday.”
Ano daaawwww??? I called Carlo and asked him to read the lines for me, word for word. I did not trust myself to go check her blog since I was seething in anger. I checked my reflection and saw my face in red haze. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve never hated her. I’ve never even disliked her (ok, a bit when she blogged stuff about me way back). In fact, I’ve always wished that she becomes happy. So I guess that pretty much equalizes her prayers for me. What I can’t take is that bullshit forgiveness she generously offered me. Completely daw eh. Gahd. After all these years, she still thinks that I was the one who wronged her? She never really considered that I was also a victim of that twisted open relationship crap that she and her then-boyfriend started. I have no idea what rules they made up for that open relationship bull, but I’m 110% sure that I did not date him to be the number 2. Or magfeeling na maging number 1. Exactly what does an open relationship mean?! What did their open relationship mean? If I did wrong her, surely it took 2 to tango, so why not blame him, too?
It’s frustrating that she never got to know my side. It’s more frustrating that there is no more point of her knowing what my side is.
It’s very simple really. I liked him. He liked me. I loved him. She loved him. He liked me. He loved her. And I let go.
After a year I heard that they ended things. I saw him again and la la la and after a month he was happy with someone else.
Life’s like that. He’s happy. She’s happy. I’m happy. We’re all happy apart. =)
Two hours ago, I braved checking her blog and saw with my own eyes her message for me. I replied– not anonymous this time.
“thanks for the prayers. 🙂 i don’t think i need the forgiveness, though. afterall, you don’t know my side of the story. no use of knowing it now. 🙂 i’m glad that you’re happy! cheers! “
All words said were meant.
Cheers to moving on!
Owee, if you’re reading this, I love your photos. Saw your website. You are amazing. 🙂
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