To Owee

Two weeks ago, Carlo woke me up with an sms that was enough for me to get up and swear the rest of my goodnight’s sleep to hell.

“Saw her blog. She’s happy. She says she’s completely forgiven you and that she prays for you everyday.”

Ano daaawwww??? I called Carlo and asked him to read the lines for me, word for word. I did not trust myself to go check her blog since I was seething in anger. I checked my reflection and saw my face in red haze. Don’t get me wrong. I’ve never hated her. I’ve never even disliked her (ok, a bit when she blogged stuff about me way back).Β In fact, I’ve always wished that she becomes happy. So I guess that pretty much equalizes her prayers for me. What I can’t take is that bullshit forgiveness she generously offered me. Completely daw eh. Gahd. After all these years, she still thinks that I was the one who wronged her? She never really considered that I was also a victim of that twisted open relationship crap that she and her then-boyfriend started. I have no idea what rules they made up for that open relationship bull, but I’m 110% sure that I did not date him to be the number 2. Or magfeeling na maging number 1. Exactly what does an open relationship mean?! What did their open relationship mean? If I did wrong her, surely it took 2 to tango, so why not blame him, too?

It’s frustrating that she never got to know my side. It’s more frustrating that there is no more point of her knowing what my side is.

It’s very simple really. I liked him. He liked me. I loved him. She loved him. He liked me. He loved her. And I let go.

After a year I heard that they ended things. I saw him again and la la la and after a month he was happy with someone else.

Life’s like that. He’s happy. She’s happy. I’m happy. We’re all happy apart. =)

Two hours ago, I braved checking her blog and saw with my own eyes her message for me. I replied– not anonymous this time.

“thanks for the prayers. πŸ™‚ i don’t think i need the forgiveness, though. afterall, you don’t know my side of the story. no use of knowing it now. πŸ™‚ i’m glad that you’re happy! cheers! “

All words said were meant.

Cheers to moving on!

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Owee, if you’reΒ reading this, I love your photos. Saw your website. You are amazing. πŸ™‚

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listening to: Ace and Emz talking about bonus opportunity

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16 Comments

  1. hug πŸ™‚

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  2. jokoness

     /  September 8, 2010

    i don’t know what to say.
    kawawa kayong dalwa.
    lalo na ikaw, dahil siyempre ikaw ang manok namin.
    basta happy ka.

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  3. jokoness

     /  September 8, 2010

    i mean kawawa kayo re: the situation dati ah.
    not kawawa ka, now. etc.
    labo ko, sorry!

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  4. Hi iya,

    hindi ka nag iisa sa ganyang situation. i experienced it recently. pero keribels na lang, we just need to move forward. =)

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  5. kas: salamat. sana ma-contact ko na rin si miss ana para may good news din ako sa iyo.

    joko: haha @ ako ang manok niyo. haha oo nga, parang ang labo nun. πŸ™‚

    anna: true. forward. no regrets naman sa past. so i dont have to linger sa kung ano mang bearing ng past. :p

    llb: thanks! cheers! and kain! wheee!

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    • May there be good news and i’ll give you back another good news on that said day of event, may it push through or more like, may they be interested to have it na πŸ˜› πŸ™‚

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  6. sab

     /  September 8, 2010

    your friends are right. good job on being the mature one iya. i hug you! we’re still here. πŸ˜€

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  7. Who knows maybe after she reads this she’ll eventually realize that the guy is the real big bad wolf. =)

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  8. @sab thank you! *hugs*
    @eunice natawa ako sa comment mo! Pero in fairness to JA, mabait naman siya. i feel that ayaw nya akong mapasama pero mas ayaw lang nya na mapasama sarili nya? Ganun talaga. I also wish him well. Mukha naman syang happy. Ü

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  9. well well well, look do we have here.

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  10. Bayani ka para sa lahat ng mga hindi maka-move on πŸ™‚

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  11. Crazeee! Even if I dont know the gist, I can pretty much tell that the girl likes the story the way she wanted it told. πŸ™‚

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  12. nyl: look do we have here talaga! :p

    happylittlegirl: nako. suffer galore naman muna ako bago ako maka-move on.

    kristine: sabi nga nila. wala naman magagawa kahit yun gusto nyang paniwalaan. πŸ™‚

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