In celebration of Google’s 13th anniversary, I googled myself.

Of course, results were all the links of social networking sites I am part of and a couple my friends’ blogs. I left WEB and checked PHOTOS and saw a couple of pictures of me from my blog and pictures of Iya Villania.

This was the newest addition and it absolutely caught my attention.

Someone made a vector image of me! How cool is that? 🙂

The photo used was from 2005 methinks. It’s nice to (re)discover something as thoughtful as this. It absolutely made my day. 🙂

Well, this, and googling all my exes names and seeing myour pictures show up in every damn search. Nyahahaha!


Thanks to Candice Bacas for the image! 🙂


listening to: Nirvana – Come As You Are

Emax Love Love Love Love!

“To find a career to which you are adapted by nature, and then to work hard at it, is about as near to a formula for success and happiness as the world provides. One of the fortunate aspects of this formula is that, granted the right career has been found, the hard work takes care of itself. Then hard work is not hard work at all.”

~ Mark Sullivan


I celebrated my 4th year in Eperformax last September 21. =)

I had no idea four years back that I will grow to love this company so much.

Photo from my old blog: thebluegreenanalogy

I am proud to say that Emax has made me a more passionate, empowered, resourceful, flexible, optimistic, results-oriented and motivated person. Haha, I just spelled out PERFORM, one of the many acronyms we have here in the office. :p

Photo from our 2009 Christmas party. I was a Passion Awardee! :p

I have been very blessed to work with an energetic and talented bunch of colleagues. Team Recruitment has been through a lot– referral programs, mall activations, mall fairs, campus fairs, tv guestings (lol) and gulungan sa putik to name a few.

Photo from our 2011 Team Building in Lorreland

I have been loving Emax for 4 years and counting.

Thank You God for this gift! =)


listening to: The Cure – Just Like Heaven

My Real LIFE Break


I felt really bad last Friday because of a pathetic case of soul-wrecking envy. I skipped a night out with friends because of this. I wanted to stay home because I didn’t want to deal with my friends’ questions about what brought me down. It’s one of those predicaments that I only wanted to share with God.

One of my friends sent me an sms asking why I wouldn’t be joining them and I found myself giving her a sketch of the reason. I told her I needed a BIG BREAK. She told me she had an idea and I thought she was going to sched a videoke night to drive my blues away or whisk me off to an out of town adventure. But her suggestion was faaaaaaar from my guesses.

She invited me to volunteer in a Real LIFE feeding program.


Feeding in Pinagbuhatan, Pasig

Woke up 6am on a Saturday. Instead of feeling groggy, I felt like the Energizer Bunny. I would have done 20+ cartwheels if I knew how! Met up with Shani (yes, she’s the friend I was talking about in the backstory :P) in Crossing and we were able to locate the Real LIFE Center after a 20-minute cab ride and 4 quick convos with traffic enforcers and bystanders that we asked for directions.

The organizers told us we’re to expect 2 batches of 50+ kids each. Itinerary was simple– playtime and eating. I guess it was pretty simple enough considering we were around a dozen who volunteered to be big sisters and big brothers for the day. I took a deep breath and channeled my inner preschool teacher. Haha. More of call back the Iya from 8 years ago. sa mga hindi po nakaka-alam, preschool teacher po ako dati. 😛

Here are the rules that everybody must follow. These 5 reminded me of Robert Fulghum’s book, All I Really Need To Know, I Learned in Kindergarden. 🙂

Running around the activity center was the main delight for the kids. Next was having us carry them. I could only do a piggy backride. I left the on-the-shoulders carry to the boys. :p

There were some kids who gave their full attention to Ate Ria when she told them the story of “Ang Leon at Ang Lamok”, there were also some kids who preferred to tell their own stories to the big sister/big brother that they were with.

One of these kids was Paula. (see picture below) She preferred to tell Shani and me stories about volcanoes, animals and her family. Another thing she wanted to do was have her picture taken. :p

After an hour of playing (takbuhan, kargahan and Bahay-Baboy-bagyo) and storytelling, we ushered the kids to the dining area where they were served bowls of rice and ground pork with veggies. Here are the cousins Janelle and Sarah. Guess what their ages are. Akala ko 5 and 4. Nope. They’re 7 and 9. Hopefully, the meals we served them would contribute significantly to their height increase. 🙂

Some kids went for seconds. Some for thirds. Some had more water than food. (Water, please!!!) Some kids didn’t want to eat the veggies. Some kids shared that they even eat ampalaya. And there was one kid who’d only eat if we take her picture. (See picture below.) One spoonful for every shot. Look at the little princess doing that kawaii thing.

Even my little “mommies” were fond of the kawaii-pose. I call them my little “mommies” because they said, “Ikaw ang baby namin! Susubuan ka namin mamaya ng kanin at ulam!” Haha, they didn’t get to feed me but they attempted!

We finished feeding 116 kids around noon. There was a short meeting after where one of the Real LIFE scholars, Cezanne, talked to us about her amazing story. She used to be one of the kids that attended the feeding progs and she became one of the foundation’s scholars. She’s now taking up Mass Comm in University of Makati. 🙂

After a quick chat with the volunteers over delicious puto, Shani and I left the Real LIFE Center quite tired but very happy. 🙂



I told Shani that I needed a BIG BREAK. I felt that the Saturday with the kids and Shani was God’s way of answering my prayer in a lot of ways. It made me realize what I really want to do and where I should be– at least for now.  As stated in the Bible, we are made rich so that we can be generous. I know that He will show me more ways of maximizing the gifts He has lovingly given me. And I know that He will give me the wisdom to take the next step.

We’re all blessed with gifts– time, ability, strength, inspiration, money, humor and a whole lot more. 🙂 If you also want to maximize the gifts you have been given, I will give you the same suggestion that my friend gave me.

Learn about Real LIFE. Give to LIFE. And change a LIFE. 🙂


“You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God.”

2 Corinthians 9:11


listening to: Bread – Everything I Own

SPTD : Saksak Puso Tulo ang Dugo

May mga kanta na kahit ok ka na ay makakapagpa-alala sa iyo ng mga bagay-bagay na gusto mo nang kalimutan at pipilipitin muli ang puso mo sa sakit. Ang tawag ko dito ay mga kantang SPTD o  mga kantang Saksak Puso Tulo ang Dugo.

Isang araw na nadurog ang puso ko, tinaggal ko ang mga ito sa playlist ko PERO kalimitan ko pa rin silang binabanatan ‘pag panahon ng videoke. Bakit? Wala lang. Ganon lang talaga. Masokista kasi ako. Hahaha! Napilitan lang akong i-download ang mga ito muli para sa meme na ito na pinasimunuan ng sadistang si Maricris. Sinang-ayunan rin naman ito ng mga sadista rin (o masokista) na sina Eunice at Joko.

‘Eto ang mga kanta na ‘pag papakinggan ko ay lumalayo muna ako sa mga bagay na pwede kong magamit sa sarili ko na panakit:

Para sa First Puppy Love

Upside Down – Two Minds Crack
Bakit? Favorite song ito nung mokong na ‘yon. Naaalala ko, bumili pa ako dati ng pirated CD na meron nito para pakinggan noong kami pa. Parang premonition na he’s gonna turn me on, turn me around and turn my whole world upside down. Nakakahilo.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Baby you don’t understand / Our love lies lost but you’re still hodling my hand / Oh and then you walk away / Just tonight I want you to stay

Somewhere Only We Know – Keane
Bakit? Eight years after naming magbreak, lumabas kami uli at noong ihahatid niya ako sa bahay, ito ang kantang narinig ko sa kotse kung kelan sakto ang oto ay nasa parte ng kalsada kung saan kami laging humihinto. (Wholesome ito na hinto, ika ha!) Nag-init ang ulo ko nung marinig ko ito sa trailer ng Winnie The Pooh The Movie.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: And if you have a minute, why don’t we go / Talk about it somewhere only we know / This could be the end of everything / So why don’t we go / So why don’t we go

Para sa Second Puppy Love

Say It – Voices of Theory
Bakit? Weh bakit nga ba, eh love song ito na sweet. Yun nga eh. Nasesenti ako ‘pag naririnig ko ito kasi naaalala ko ang mga pambobola niya sa akin. At ang mga pangako niyang napako. Sa bagay, kasalanan ko rin kasi masyado akong uto-uto trusting.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Am I giving enough / Is this all that should be / When water gets rough / Will you still swim with me?

Every Now and Then – Earth, Wind & Fire
Bakit? Hindi ko maalala kung bakit ito ang torture song of choice ko noong naghiwalay kami. Baka dahil puro mga old souls ang kasama ko noong mga panahong ‘yon. Hahaha.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: When I’m alone anytime I hear music play / When I reach, reach for the phone / Why does everything good / Make me think of you baby

Para sa First Love

U & I – Cynthia Alexander
Bakit: Hindi ko magugustuhan si Cynthia Alexander kung hindi dahil sa kanya. Itong kanta na ito ay nagpapaalala sa akin ng real love. Tipong love na mababasa mo sa 1 Corinthians 13. Ang original song ko ay Comfort in Your Strangeness dahil nakaramdam ako ng feeling of home sa kanya. Kaso lang, gusto niya ng something different. Penge nga ng kutsilyo dyan.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: The color in between us is the sky that binds us / Never-ending you / Begin on & on & on / I only know U are for real / But last night in black & white / A dream of lovers’ eyes / A song on an old phonograph / A moving photograph of U & I

Can We Still Be Friends – Mandy Moore
Bakit: Dahil ito ay hindi pwedeng mangyari sa amin. Sayang. Sinubukan sana namin pero hindi talaga pwede. Hindi pwedeng magkaron ng pagkakaibigan kung ‘yung isa ay wala namang pakialam sa iyo. Sinasabing meron, hindi mo naman maramdaman. Oh and btw, pwede rin sa amin ang Someday We’ll Know ni Mandy Moore and Jason Foreman.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: It’s a strange sad affair / Sometimes seems like we just don’t care / Don’t waste time feeling hurt / We’ve been through hell together

Para sa Kaibigan na Minahal

Friends – Mike Francis
Bakit? Sa description pa lang, di’ba? Friend I wasn’t supposed to fall for nga. Naalala ko minsan, kumakain kami sa labas tapos pinatugtog ito. Gusto ko sanang mag-walk out kaso lang hindi ako pwedeng magpahalata.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Watch me my friend / I feel you reachin’ in my mind though I know we’ll be in love just for one night / I keep on trying to change my point of view again/ but everything seems to be the same / I want you where you are now / I don’t wanna lose you

What Might Have Been – Lou Pardini
Bakit? Self explanatory na sana ang title. Pero, ‘yun nga. Napapaisip ako kung ano kaya ang nangyari kung nasabi ko sa kanya dati noong mga panahon na nagmamatter pa. Anyway, friends pa rin naman kami ngayon. Friends lang talaga, hindi na uusad. Ayoko na rin.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: I’m ready this time / I know that I’m no longer undecided / Don’t wanna be a fool wondering / What might have been

Para sa Kasalanan

I Love You, Goodbye – Celine Dion
Bakit? Kasi ito talaga ang naging drama ko sa kanya. Hindi ako umamin ng feelings ko until the day na kailangan ko nang magpaalam kasi mali nga ang sitwasyon. At take note, nagka-repeat pa ito. With a different person naman. Oo na. Matigas ang ulo ko. Ihampas mo ako sa pader, pader pa ang masasaktan.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: You’ll find someone who’ll be the one that I could never be / Who’ll give you something better / Than the love you’ll find with me / Oh I could say that I’ll be all you need / But that would be a crime

I Don’t Want to be Your Friend –  Nina
Bakit? Mahirap ‘yung iniiwasan mong magkafeelings ka pa tapos pinagdudukdukan nung isang tao yung sarili niya sa buhay mo. Ayaw mo namang bastusin kasi importante pa rin siya sa iyo at gusto mo pa rin ng koneksyon sa kanya, pero anong gagawin mo kung bawal talaga?
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Don’t call me in the middle of the night no more / Don’t expect me to be there / Don’t think that it will be the way it was before / Don’t think that I care / I’m not over you yet / And I don’t wanna be your friend

Para sa Taong Hindi Ko Ma-Classify

Kung OK Lang Sa’Yo – True Faith
Bakit? Dahil dapat kakantahin niya ito sa akin noong birthday ko but then again, I threw a bitchfit so he ended up singing this to me before we called it quits. Ang labo lang, di’ba? Buong relationship naman namin malabo talaga. Ang klaro lang doon, minahal ko ito. Sobra. Grabe. At nasaktan niya ako sa level rin na ‘yon.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Ngayong alam mo na, sana’y ‘di ka mainis / At pasensya na kung ako ay makulit / Pero kung gusto mo, ako na lang ang lalayo / Kung OK lang sa ‘yo

Ghost – Indigo Girls
Bakit? Kung ira-rank ko ang mga kantang nilagay ko dito, ito ang Top 1. Ito ang pinakanakakadurog na kantang narinig ko. At medyo nakakapagtaka na sa taong ito ko ito naaalala. Nakakapagtaka at nakakakaba.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: And I guess that’s how you started like a pinprick to my heart / but at this point you rush right through me and I start to drown / And there’s not enough room in this world for my pain / Signals cross and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain

Marami pang ibang kanta tulad ng I Try ni Macy Gray, It Means Nothing ng Stereophonics, Against All Odds ni Phil Collins, It Might Be You ni Patti Austin, Heartbreak Warfare at Friends, Lovers or Nothing ni John Mayer, Here is Gone ng Goo Goo Dolls, Thinking of You ni Katy Perry, Rewind ni Paolo Nutini, I Fall to Pieces ni Patsy Cline, Everybody Hurts ng REM, One ng U2, An Ex is an Ex for A Reson ng the Courteneers, Wasted Time ng The Eagles, How Can You Mend a Broken Heart ni Al Greene, Go Your Own Way ng Fleetwood Mac, Migraine ng Moonstar 88, I Know It’s Over ng The Smiths, Ikaw Lamang ng Silent Sanctuary, Something to Say ng Harem Scarem, Ikaw Ang Lahat sa Akin ni Martin Nievera, Set You Free ng Side A at maraming maraming marami pang iba.

Wala tayong magagawa. Emo nga daw ako. Hindi bitter, excuse me. Sa totoo lang, I’m ok. People change, memories don’t, ika nga. Kung may listahan ako ng mga Saksak Puso Tulo ang Dugo na mga kanta, meron din naman akong listahan para sa aking hopeless romantic side.

At dahil diyan, isang araw, gagawan ko rin iyong ng post. Tatawagin ko iyo na The Parinig Playlist.

And with that, iniiwan ko ang quote na ito para sa inyo:


Pahabol na SPTD song…

listening to: Iron & Wine – Always On My Mind

Forgive and Forget

Here are some of my favorite quotes about 2 of life’s most essential things- forgiveness and forgetting. 🙂


“Sincere forgiveness isn’t colored with expectations that the other person apologize or change. Don’t worry whether or not they finally understand you. Love them and release them. Life feeds back truth to people in its own way and time.”
~ Sara Paddison

“Most of us can forgive and forget; we just don’t want the other person to forget that we forgave.”
~ Ivern Ball

“You will know that forgiveness has begun when you recall those who hurt you and feel the power to wish them well.”
~ Lewis Smedes

“Forgiveness is a funny thing. It warms the heart and cools the sting.”
~ William Arthur Ward

“The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. ”
~ Gandhi


“Blessed are those who give without remembering and take without forgetting.”
~ Elizabeth Bibesco

“Our birth is but a sleep and a forgetting. Not in entire forgetfulness, and not in utter nakedness, but trailing clouds of glory do we come.
~ William Wordsworth

“When suffering comes, we yearn for some sign from God, forgetting we have just had one.”
~ Mignon McLaughlin

“The trick to forgetting the big picture is to look at everything close-up.
~ Chuck Palahniuk

“This kind of forgetting does not erase memory, it lays the emotion surrounding the memory to rest.”
~ Clarissa Pinkola Estes


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listening to: Sparkadia – The Kiss of Death

Sushi, Zombies and A Little Respect

Last Saturday was exceptionally fun. 😀

Spent the entire day with my quiznight teammates (aka my favorite nerds) eating, laughing and singing. =)


Joko opened Yakimix at 11am. Our lunch there lasted for almost 4 hours. Sinulit talaga ang buffet. At napatunayan ko na bagay talaga sa amin ang name na Team PG. Gluttons kung gluttons. What is Patay Gutom? :p

Above are photos of the food I ate. Three plates plus grilled stuff plus dessert. Partida pa ‘yan kasi naka-“diet” ako ngayon. Iwas sa kanin at sweets. 

Last photo of course is the mandatory group pic. Left to right: Aji, me, Shani, Jeeves, Maj, Rudi, Vlad, Maricris and Joko.

Blooey, Mike, Joseph we missed you!!! 🙂 Hmmm… sino pa ba na-miss namin? Ika nga ni Jeeves… *evilmaniacallaughter*



After an awesome lunch and a really long kwentuhan about childhood memories also known as Joko and Shani’s full of win moments, we went to Glorietta to watch Zombadings 1: Patayin sa Shokot si Remington.

I wanted to see this because I am a big Roderick Paulate fan. Since he’s the only reason I needed to catch Zombadings, I didn’t watch the trailer, didn’t read any stuff about it. hence, I had no idea that Eugene Domingo is also part of the cast. Shempre, mas achieve na silang 2 na favorite ko ay nandoon.

I found the movie hilarious but I still liked Ang Babae sa Septic Tank better. There were a lot of predictable scenes in the movie, but it’s okay because of the darling cast. Ang cute and ang galing nila Martin Escudero (Remington) and Kerbie Zamora (Jigs). Ang refreshing nung character ni Lauren Young. Awesome si John Regala para siyang nakababatang Johnny Delgado. Even Janice De Belen was ok, eh normally naiirita ako sa acting niya.

Roderick’s and Eugene’s roles were small but they provided the funniest scenes. As expected.

Paalala lang sa mga straight guys na manonood, ihanda niyo ang inyong sarili sa “intimate” scenes. Siguro naman sa title pa lang na ZomBADINGS, gets niyo na dapat ang pinapasok niyo. 😀

Buti hindi natuluyang magwalk out sa “stairs scene” si Rudi. buti na lang pinigilan siya ni Maj. :))



Gilmore after the movie. I do not want to tell you were we went for videoke as it’s a very special place. We don’t want people “stealing” this golden hole in the wall. Hahaha. Sobrang panalo kasi talaga. Sabi nga sa Zombadings— AWARD!!! Hahaha!

When we entered our room, this was the first things we saw.


Heckyeah. Livin’ it up at the Hotel CALIFORNIS! Ahahahaha!

Anyway. Aji started our videoke sesh with Counting Crows’ Mr.Jones. I followed with Katrina and The Waves’ Walking on Sunshine. May dramarama ever rin ako, but you know me, hindi pwedeng magka-videoke night na walang SPTD or Saksak Puso Tulo ang Dugo songs.

My favorite performances (performances daw o) were:

1. Halik by Joko (Oo, yung sa Aegis. Birit kung birit!)
2. Dreamlover by Shani (Kay Bobby Darin, super oldskool. Cute ng lyrics!)
3. I Do by Marie (Hay nako, Lisa Loeb. Nadali mo talaga.)
4. Gold by Mike (Song of choice ko sana ito eh, pero mas may K si Mike kantahin ito kaysa sa akin. Duh.)
5. These Dreams by Aji (Mejo may kurot ito sa puso ko, but oh well. :,))

And of course, the song that has been blasting in my skull since that night hence the title…

6. A Little Respect by Vlad (Hindi na Always ang favorite Erasure song ko dahil dito, hahahaha!)

I would also like to pat myself on the back for singing my all time favorite OPM keso song, Mahihintay sa ‘Yo by Dingdong Avanzado (lyrics: mahal, mahal na mahal kita, hindi ako magbabago asahan mo itoooooooooo) AND barbie Girl by Aqua. Ako na si Barbie, ako pa si ken. Nagspecial participation sana si Mike, pero parang si Cookie Monster ang voice niya.

Ended the night with the song WHY CAN’T IT BE by Rannie Raymundo.

Hindi naman naging suicidal ang ilan sa amin dahil sa kantang ito. Thank God we still had some laughs (reminiscing Joko’s and Shani’s childhood stories/empathy exercises/matapobre punchlines) at Ersao, where we they got some tea to cap off the fantastic night.


TODAY IS OUR RESIDENT MICROBIOLOGIST’S 45th 30th BIRTHDAY! (sabi ni Joko? Kwe? matanda ka na eh)





listening to: Erasure – A Little Respect

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