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Of Waiting and Pagtingin Sa Mga Hayop

Was listening to a VCF podcast yesterday about praying and Pastor Robert said something about waiting for the perfect partner that caught my attention and tickled my funnybone.

He said (something like)…

“If you’re waiting for your perfect partner to come along, just chill. Huwag magmadali. Remember, Adam was put to sleep and when he woke up, Eve was already there. NAPAGOD MUNA SIYA SA KAKATINGIN SA MGA HAYOP bago sa kanya ibinigay si Eba.”

Wala lang. Nakakatawa lang. :p

I believe that we serve a God of perfect timings. I believe that very much. Lalo na ngayon.

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listening to: Kristinia DeBarge – Future Love

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by Iya Santos on August 28, 2012  •  Permalink
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Friday Five: Hindi Ka Niya Gusto

Mas malupit pa sa mga linya noong nakaraang linggo ang FRIDAY FIVE ko ngayon. Ito ang version ko ng He’s Just Not That Into You. Ang version ko ay, He’s Really Not Into You. Move On, Get A Fucking Life.

Ito ay dahil may naalala akong conversation na naganap a couple of days ago.

It’s happening again because you’re doing it again!!!
Hello? hindi lang naman ako ang at fault dito noh.
Parang lang ‘yan ‘yong nangyari sa inyo ni ___ eh! Akala mo ‘yun na. Akala rin namin, ‘yun na. Pero naging kayo ba? HINDI!!! May gusto ba siya sa iyo? WALA!!!
O, tama na. Masakit na ha. Taaamaaaa naaaaaa!
I’m just saying ‘wag ka na d’yan. Don’t waste your time on him.
Yeah, you’re right. damn it, you’re right.

1. Hindi ka niya tinatawagan o tinetext.
Kahit wrong send lang kuno, wala. Kahit pa forwarded cheesy quote o chain text na nakakamatay, wala. Who cares kung pinaghirapan niyang kunin ang number mo o kinantahan mo siya ng Call Me, Maybe. Basta hindi ka niya kino-contact, ang silbi mo lang ay pampadami ng phonebook entries niya.

2. Hindi ka niya niyayayang lumabas.
Kung ayaw ka niyang makita, ayaw rin niyang maging parte ng buhay mo. Kung yayain ka man niyang lumabas, pero may kasama kayo, ‘wag ka pa rin mag-ilusyon. Ang tao na gusto ka, gusto ka rin dapat solohin. At kapag nasolo ka niya, hindi siya dapat natatakot na kayong dalawa lang.

3. Hindi ka niya inaalalayan.
Big deal ito sa akin, kaya sinama ko ito. Kung makasama mo siya at tumawid kayo sa kalye at hindi siya pumunta sa danger side, wala siyang paki sa iyo. ‘Wag ka na ring umasa na ipaghanda ka niya ng upuan o ipagbukas ng pinto. Kahit pa independent woman ka, gugustuhin mo ba ng hindi gentleman?

4. Hindi ka niya kimukumusta.
Ito ay sa kung nag-uusap man kayo sa Facebook o magkita sa event (hindi ka nga niya tinatawagan o tinetext diba). Kung wala siyang paki sa mga ganap sa buhay mo, asa ka pa na magkakaron siya ng paki sa puso mo. At utang na loob ha. Napaka-accessible ng communication dahil sa social media ngayon. No excuses.

5. Hindi ka niya binibigyan ng oras.
Obvious naman na sa unang apat ko na nabanggit na walang panahon sa iyo yung tao, kaya natural na rin na wala siyang interes sa iyo. ‘Wag kang magpapadala sa sabi-sabi na busy siya. Punyetang excuse lang ‘yan. Ang taong may gusto, kahit na busy, hindi busy. Anti-delusion motto: ‘Pag gusto, may paraan. ‘Pag ayaw, may dahilan.

Mahirap tanggapin ang mga ito lalo na kung gusto mo talaga ‘yung tao, kung gustong-gusto mo na magustuhan ka rin niya. Pero isipin mo lang, maganda na sa maaga pa lang, alam mo na.

‘WAG KA NANG UMAPILA.

Wala siyang gusto sa iyo. Akala mo lang mina-mindgames ka niya.

OK, FINE. Nagtetext siya sa iyo, tinatawagan ka niya, inaalalayan ka niya, lumalabas kayo… kahit ramdam na ramdam mo na the feeling is mutual. Malamang friendly lang ‘yung tao. Baka hindi ka lang nagmamalay, o dine-deny mo lang na you have just been friendzoned. Or worse, bro-zoned (tinawag ka niyang dude o pare).

TANDAAN: HANGGANG HINDI SINASABI SA IYO NA GUSTO KA NIYA, WALA SIYANG GUSTO SA IYO.

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listening to: Badly Drawn Boy – Disillusion

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by Iya Santos on July 27, 2012  •  Permalink
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On Praying and Following My Own Advice

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Some months ago, a friend confided that she stopped praying for what she wanted. I asked why and she said that she grew tired of repeating the same thing and repeatedly not getting what she prayed for. She said that she didn’t want to get to a point where disappointment would take her as far as hating God.

“If you stop, how will He know that you really want it?” I asked.

“He knows what’s in my heart because He is God,” she replied.

She added that I wouldn’t be able to understand because I am very happy with my life. That I have a lot of friends to make me forget if and when I do have problems.

I was surprised to know that she assumed I was not capable of feeling down. I assured her that like any other human being, I experience frustration. Depression, even. Obviously, we’re not very close. She had no idea that sometimes when I am alone, I beg God for the strength to keep me sane, and lead me not into the road I used to traverse.

But I wasn’t there to join her in her hopelessness. I pleaded that she asks God for the gift of discernment for her to know what really it is that she should ask from Him. Only then will she be able to continue praying. And she shouldn’t stop praying because God honors persistence. We just have to check if we are being steadfast or stubborn. Hence, asking for the gift of discernment first. Because seriously, if we ask for things that will not make us better individuals, why would a powerful loving God say yes?

And if we are absolutely sure that what we ask from Him is something that will indeed make us better versions of ourselves and He doesn’t give it, well… We keep on praying and believe that the waiting time is His way to prepare us for the gift we have patiently put our faith into.

Which brings me to my very recent meltdown.

It’s agonizing to not know if what I’m praying for will be given to me. After all, I will never understand the mind of God. During times of impatience, doubt and fear that my prayers will not be answered, I simply cannot help but wonder if what I want is the same with what He wants for me. If we have opposite plans, why can’t He just give me a sign to pray for different things and save me from another heartache? Why does He keep on giving me trials? For me to learn? For me to be wise? For me to serve as an example to others? Or is He giving me trials to punish me and show me that I will not ever get His favor?

Yes, I have moments like that. I am not proud of such moments. In my heart, I know that God loves me and it hurts me to entertain doubts. I want to keep on believing that I am living my purpose and if He has bigger plans for me, I will be able to see and understand these plans as they are being revealed.

I know that He doesn’t hate me when I get mad at Him. I know He knows I cry out of ignorance and frustration. I am not perfect, but He knows once the tears dry, I always try and make it up to Him because it also means making it up to me. I know that He knows I will always come around because there is no place I’d rather be than in His presence. I know that my happiness is His business even if times come when I believe a little less.

I’m praying that I will not lose the persistence. I’m praying for God to help me crush the doubt in my heart. I want to be steadfast in my faith. I want to be able to share this to my family and friends. I want to see the day when I will be able to tell the world that God finally granted the desires of my heart and the long wait was worth it.

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listening to: nothing

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by Iya Santos on June 9, 2012  •  Permalink
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Lola Miling

My paternal grandmother passed away this afternoon.

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{1 year old me with Lola}

She suffered from kidney tumors and colon and lung complications. Daddy visited her in the hospital last week and he called me up so I could talk to Lola. I told her I was sorry for not visiting yet. I told her to wait for me because I would visit her soon. I even joked that mag-iinuman pa kami*. She laughed (yung mahinhin niyang tawa, see, mana ako sa Lola ko) and told me to take care.

I was supposed to see her THIS Saturday. I was supposed to hug her and tell her how grateful I am to her for giving me my Daddy. I wanted to tell her that even if I’ve always thought that I wasn’t a favorite apo because I rarely spent my vacations in Pangasinan, I treasure the memories I spent with her in the family house’s dining room, where she’d struggle in talking to me in Tagalog and pushed me to eat more bangus, talangka, and sugpo… when she’d giggle like a child whenever I’d speak to her in broken Pangalatok/Ilokano…

I was supposed to see her this Saturday. I even asked my Dad if he wanted to meet up with me in Dagupan so we’d just go to the hospital together. He replied that Lola would be brought back to the family house because that’s where she wanted to rest. After an hour, I received a message from my Dad again. Lola Miling already passed away. She didn’t even get to make it home.

But I guess, God already welcomed Lola in her real home– in heaven where my Lolo Felix had been waiting for almost 12 years. There, they can continue their love story and watch over all of us here.

I don’t even know their love story. I never bothered to ask. It’s a regret that I didn’t. It’s a regret that I did not seize the opportunities to be close to her.

To all of you out there, don’t be like me. Have a sense of urgency to express your appreciation, need, want, love to the people you care about.

I’m going to Pangasinan this weekend to pay my respects to Lola Miling. If you could, please say a little prayer for her. Her name was Emilia Lomibao Santos.

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* Lagi ko noon jino-joke si Lola na mag-iinuman pa kami kasi when I was little, nakikita ko s’ya na may hawak na lapad. Parang si Tita Minerva sa Palibhasa Lalake. :,)

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listening to: nothing

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by Iya Santos on April 26, 2012  •  Permalink
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Of soup and pearls

I woke up this morning wanting to call in sick but I couldn’t because there were a lot of things I had to do in the office. I remembered him when a long time ago, I told him I was sick and couldn’t go to work and he offered to bring me soup and take care of me until I feel better. I told him, “Adik ka ba?” I didn’t want him to visit me because I didn’t want my parents to meet him. He met my parents after a couple of months in a very very embarrassing situation. No, my parents didn’t walk in on us while you-know-what. Anyway, we ended up going out and watching a movie albeit me being sick. I didn’t want to kiss him, but he risked getting the virus. True enough, he had cough and colds a few days after. I sent him an sms saying “Get well”. He replied, “Soup?” and I said, “You have helpers. Go ask one of them to make you some.” No wonder he didn’t become my boyfriend. But hey, I wanted to be there but I wasn’t prepared to meet his mom and dad.

I was stuck with that memory this morning and I could help but remember the story of “The Fake Pearl” that my friend Ralph shared with me last night. I almost bawled while walking out of Glorietta when I told him I already knew how the story’s gonna end, “Waaaah!!! I have a fake pearl! Pucha. I have a lot of fake pearls!!!” How can God give me the true pearl when I can’t let go of the fake? How can God show me Mr.Right if my heart and mind cannot move on? What if he’s already in my life but I’m too stupid to notice him because all I see is the one I want to be with but should not be with?

It’s scary. I did not expect that my feelings are still this strong for this guy. Just mid last year I claimed that I was in love with another man boy. This other boy even asked me before why after this guy who wanted to bring me soup, I was not able to love again. I can’t remember what I answered but I knew I answered what I believed was true that time. And what I believed true was I didn’t have feelings for him anymore and that I was just waiting for the right one to come along. Couldn’t be more wrong. Few months after I was asked that question, I was with the soup-guy (haha lame codename I know, so tempted to put his initials but I won’t) and some of my friends and I thought it was just one of those regular drinking sessions where I was chatty because of the alcohol buzz. My friends told me right after that night that they’ve never seen me that happy. Not even with the guy I claimed I was in love with. That scared me because I didn’t want to fall all over again. But I guess I set myself up for trouble. And I fell. Harder than before. I believe the word they used to describe me when I was with soup-guy was effervescent. Lively. Sparkling.

Wow. :,(

I put on my work clothes and put on makeup. I went out of the house and walked to the elevator. I walked back to the house and went in my room and removed all the pictures of us. Just recently, I had our favorite pictures printed because resisting him wasn’t working so I thought, maybe filling my world with his memories might make me sick of him. I kept the pictures underneath a stack of old books that I don’t plan reading. The dust made me sneeze.

I deleted his name from my phonebook.

Hopefully, This is the last time I’m going to write about him.

My body is sick. My heart is hopeful. Real pearl, come to me.

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listening to: nothing

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by Iya Santos on January 11, 2012  •  Permalink
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Ospital, Sisig, Concierto at Deciembre

DECEMBER— my favorite month (and? but?) also the month that gives me the most stress. Christmas should be about love and joy and giving but for the past few years it just means GASTOS to me. Add to the fact that it’s also my birth month. My stress levels have doubled because I’m turning 30 this year and I still don’t have a party plan. Arrrrgggghhh! What is birthday blues? :\

ANYWAY. I trust that things will fall into place and God will not allow me to celebrate my special day and His special day in agony. 😀 In fact, He gave me a good end of November and a great start of December.

What what? Here here. :p

Yesterday, after my shift in our Career Cafe 2 Go booth in Trinoma (Eperformax, Level 3… go visit!) I went to UST. One of my closest boybud’s Tita has been sick and we visited her in the UST Hospital. At first I didn’t want to go because hospitals freak me out but for me and my family, there’s something special about the UST hospital.

You see, the last time I was there was when I was 6 or 7 years old. My mom was sick. She had benign cancer (one teeny bit away from becoming malignant) and the trips there when I was young were, of course, worrisome. Being there after 20something years just made me realize that there really is hope and that I love the UST hospital because my mom was cured! Without the very able UST doctors, I wouldn’t have my mommy now! :,) Therefore, I trust that they will also make my friend’s Tita okay. Well, with the help of St. Thomas, I guess. :p Please God, make my friend’s Tita healthy!!! Please, please, please!!! :,)

After the hospital visit, we went to Almer’s in Dapitan.

How I missed their sisig! When I was still teaching in University of Perpetual Help, my students would always bring me to Almer’s and we’d go back to school still smelling like sisig! Hehe! Asenso na ang Almer’s. Their gravy is now in aluminum pitchers and they have new stuff on their menu, like JERK CHICKEN.

I swear, I know a jerk who loves chicken. This is what I call douchebag food. Harhar! But wait. Let’s rewind a bit. Gravy, you ask? Yes, in Almer’s, chili-toyomansi is not the cool thing to have with sisig. It’s gravy. The more, the better. Drown your sisig in gravy. Drown your rice in gravy. Go. I dare you. You will like it. Joko did! 😀

I actually drowned my rice in lomi. Good lomi. It’s just 55php. The sisig’s 50php, I think. Sorry, I didn’t have time to take a good picture of the sisig because we were too hungry and too excited to eat. We had to go back to the campus to catch the UST Symphony Orchestra.

But we didn’t leave without having dessert first. Shempre kelangan sosyal na sosyal rin ang dessert para lumevel sa Almer’s dinner namin! Mwehehehehe! Ano pa nga ba? Eh di chocnut! 😀 Only 1.50php at the nearby sari-sari store!

After our awesome dinner in Dapitan, we headed back to Uste. To the Santisimo Rosario Parish. There, we witnessed a good number of the university’s Conservatory of Music alumni sing English and Tagalog Christmas songs. My favorite (and the crowd’s, too) was when they got a little boy to sing with them. And the little boy reminded me of Happy Feet 2’s Eric! Super cute and super talented kid! Btw, I will blog about Happy Feet tomorrow or next week. 😀 Going back,  another crowd favorite was the number of the soprano, Miss Rachelle Gerodias. She’s a-maaaa-ziiiiing!

After the concert, we went to our friend’s house for a couple of bottles of Tanduay Ice and SML, sugar-free cafe latte ice cream and kwento. We talked about the friendzone, costumes for the bookclub and company Christmas parties, life, sickness, gratitude, family solidarity, love, hearts in a jar, douchebag exes and a whole lot more. We finished around 12:30am, December 1. I’m grateful that I was able to welcome December in the company of great friends in a 1920’s house in a city far from home. Not how I expected this month would start, but grateful that it’s how it came to be.

And before I end this entry, I want to share my like a boss pose at my friend’s ancestral house’s sala.

Happy December, everyone! Eat great food, love your family and friends, sing Christmas carols and continue to hope and pray for the best! 🙂

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listening to: Kampana ng Simbahan

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by Iya Santos on December 1, 2011  •  Permalink
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Sa Panaginip Na Lang

Napanaginipan kita. Nasa loob tayo ng kotse mo. Background music ang Clarity ni John Mayer yata. Tinanong daw kita kung ano ang nangyari at bakit bigla ka na lang nawala. Mahinahon naman ako sa tanong ko. Nagsisimula ka pa lang sumagot (o magdahilan) tinamaan ka na ng kamao ko. Hindi ko mapigilan. Sa bawat salita (kasinungalingan) na lumabas sa bibig mo may katapat na pananakit mula sa akin. Wala na daw akong pakialam kung saan tumama. Tinamaan kita sa mukha, sa dibdib, sa braso. Hindi na ako nagtaka na sa panaginip na ito, hindi ka na sumubok man lang na sanggain ang mga pananakit ko.

Nagising ako na nakangiti.

Ang gaan sa pakiramdam na kahit sa panaginip, nagantihan kita.

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listening to: Placebo – Ask For Answers

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by Iya Santos on November 11, 2011  •  Permalink
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Bacon

We keep on saying that men are pigs but we also keep on saying that we love bacon.

~ my Fb status message this morning

Not saying this because the man that keeps on pushing me to folly and madness is a bit on the heavy side. My Facebook, Twitter and YM pages have been flooded by posts about how much I miss him, hate him, and blah blah blah. I know I’ve been losing followers and friends because of this but I don’t care. I like talking about him even if a lot of my posts are waaaay exaggerated. He’s really not a bad person. He’s just bad for me.

I hate that I have several reasons to completely ignore him but I just couldn’t, maybe because of the other several reasons activating some fiber of hope that things will someday be alright between us.

I hate that he has this effect on me. Even the littlest thing he does can drive me to lose sleep.

The mere memory of his smile makes me effervescent. His hot and cold spells destroy my already endangered sanity. I’m too old to know better. I’m too young to care.

This is a timely rant. It’s been four years. I’m not in love. No, no. In fact I don’t fucking know what I feel.

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image source: http://shirtoid.com/14529/bacon-man/

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listening to: Yeah Yeah Yeahs – Maps

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by Iya Santos on October 27, 2011  •  Permalink
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SPTD : Saksak Puso Tulo ang Dugo

May mga kanta na kahit ok ka na ay makakapagpa-alala sa iyo ng mga bagay-bagay na gusto mo nang kalimutan at pipilipitin muli ang puso mo sa sakit. Ang tawag ko dito ay mga kantang SPTD o  mga kantang Saksak Puso Tulo ang Dugo.

Isang araw na nadurog ang puso ko, tinaggal ko ang mga ito sa playlist ko PERO kalimitan ko pa rin silang binabanatan ‘pag panahon ng videoke. Bakit? Wala lang. Ganon lang talaga. Masokista kasi ako. Hahaha! Napilitan lang akong i-download ang mga ito muli para sa meme na ito na pinasimunuan ng sadistang si Maricris. Sinang-ayunan rin naman ito ng mga sadista rin (o masokista) na sina Eunice at Joko.

‘Eto ang mga kanta na ‘pag papakinggan ko ay lumalayo muna ako sa mga bagay na pwede kong magamit sa sarili ko na panakit:

Para sa First Puppy Love

Upside Down – Two Minds Crack
Bakit? Favorite song ito nung mokong na ‘yon. Naaalala ko, bumili pa ako dati ng pirated CD na meron nito para pakinggan noong kami pa. Parang premonition na he’s gonna turn me on, turn me around and turn my whole world upside down. Nakakahilo.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Baby you don’t understand / Our love lies lost but you’re still hodling my hand / Oh and then you walk away / Just tonight I want you to stay

Somewhere Only We Know – Keane
Bakit? Eight years after naming magbreak, lumabas kami uli at noong ihahatid niya ako sa bahay, ito ang kantang narinig ko sa kotse kung kelan sakto ang oto ay nasa parte ng kalsada kung saan kami laging humihinto. (Wholesome ito na hinto, ika ha!) Nag-init ang ulo ko nung marinig ko ito sa trailer ng Winnie The Pooh The Movie.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: And if you have a minute, why don’t we go / Talk about it somewhere only we know / This could be the end of everything / So why don’t we go / So why don’t we go

Para sa Second Puppy Love

Say It – Voices of Theory
Bakit? Weh bakit nga ba, eh love song ito na sweet. Yun nga eh. Nasesenti ako ‘pag naririnig ko ito kasi naaalala ko ang mga pambobola niya sa akin. At ang mga pangako niyang napako. Sa bagay, kasalanan ko rin kasi masyado akong uto-uto trusting.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Am I giving enough / Is this all that should be / When water gets rough / Will you still swim with me?

Every Now and Then – Earth, Wind & Fire
Bakit? Hindi ko maalala kung bakit ito ang torture song of choice ko noong naghiwalay kami. Baka dahil puro mga old souls ang kasama ko noong mga panahong ‘yon. Hahaha.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: When I’m alone anytime I hear music play / When I reach, reach for the phone / Why does everything good / Make me think of you baby

Para sa First Love

U & I – Cynthia Alexander
Bakit: Hindi ko magugustuhan si Cynthia Alexander kung hindi dahil sa kanya. Itong kanta na ito ay nagpapaalala sa akin ng real love. Tipong love na mababasa mo sa 1 Corinthians 13. Ang original song ko ay Comfort in Your Strangeness dahil nakaramdam ako ng feeling of home sa kanya. Kaso lang, gusto niya ng something different. Penge nga ng kutsilyo dyan.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: The color in between us is the sky that binds us / Never-ending you / Begin on & on & on / I only know U are for real / But last night in black & white / A dream of lovers’ eyes / A song on an old phonograph / A moving photograph of U & I

Can We Still Be Friends – Mandy Moore
Bakit: Dahil ito ay hindi pwedeng mangyari sa amin. Sayang. Sinubukan sana namin pero hindi talaga pwede. Hindi pwedeng magkaron ng pagkakaibigan kung ‘yung isa ay wala namang pakialam sa iyo. Sinasabing meron, hindi mo naman maramdaman. Oh and btw, pwede rin sa amin ang Someday We’ll Know ni Mandy Moore and Jason Foreman.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: It’s a strange sad affair / Sometimes seems like we just don’t care / Don’t waste time feeling hurt / We’ve been through hell together

Para sa Kaibigan na Minahal

Friends – Mike Francis
Bakit? Sa description pa lang, di’ba? Friend I wasn’t supposed to fall for nga. Naalala ko minsan, kumakain kami sa labas tapos pinatugtog ito. Gusto ko sanang mag-walk out kaso lang hindi ako pwedeng magpahalata.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Watch me my friend / I feel you reachin’ in my mind though I know we’ll be in love just for one night / I keep on trying to change my point of view again/ but everything seems to be the same / I want you where you are now / I don’t wanna lose you

What Might Have Been – Lou Pardini
Bakit? Self explanatory na sana ang title. Pero, ‘yun nga. Napapaisip ako kung ano kaya ang nangyari kung nasabi ko sa kanya dati noong mga panahon na nagmamatter pa. Anyway, friends pa rin naman kami ngayon. Friends lang talaga, hindi na uusad. Ayoko na rin.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: I’m ready this time / I know that I’m no longer undecided / Don’t wanna be a fool wondering / What might have been

Para sa Kasalanan

I Love You, Goodbye – Celine Dion
Bakit? Kasi ito talaga ang naging drama ko sa kanya. Hindi ako umamin ng feelings ko until the day na kailangan ko nang magpaalam kasi mali nga ang sitwasyon. At take note, nagka-repeat pa ito. With a different person naman. Oo na. Matigas ang ulo ko. Ihampas mo ako sa pader, pader pa ang masasaktan.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: You’ll find someone who’ll be the one that I could never be / Who’ll give you something better / Than the love you’ll find with me / Oh I could say that I’ll be all you need / But that would be a crime

I Don’t Want to be Your Friend –  Nina
Bakit? Mahirap ‘yung iniiwasan mong magkafeelings ka pa tapos pinagdudukdukan nung isang tao yung sarili niya sa buhay mo. Ayaw mo namang bastusin kasi importante pa rin siya sa iyo at gusto mo pa rin ng koneksyon sa kanya, pero anong gagawin mo kung bawal talaga?
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Don’t call me in the middle of the night no more / Don’t expect me to be there / Don’t think that it will be the way it was before / Don’t think that I care / I’m not over you yet / And I don’t wanna be your friend

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Kung OK Lang Sa’Yo – True Faith
Bakit? Dahil dapat kakantahin niya ito sa akin noong birthday ko but then again, I threw a bitchfit so he ended up singing this to me before we called it quits. Ang labo lang, di’ba? Buong relationship naman namin malabo talaga. Ang klaro lang doon, minahal ko ito. Sobra. Grabe. At nasaktan niya ako sa level rin na ‘yon.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: Ngayong alam mo na, sana’y ‘di ka mainis / At pasensya na kung ako ay makulit / Pero kung gusto mo, ako na lang ang lalayo / Kung OK lang sa ‘yo

Ghost – Indigo Girls
Bakit? Kung ira-rank ko ang mga kantang nilagay ko dito, ito ang Top 1. Ito ang pinakanakakadurog na kantang narinig ko. At medyo nakakapagtaka na sa taong ito ko ito naaalala. Nakakapagtaka at nakakakaba.
Panaksak pusong lyrics: And I guess that’s how you started like a pinprick to my heart / but at this point you rush right through me and I start to drown / And there’s not enough room in this world for my pain / Signals cross and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain

Marami pang ibang kanta tulad ng I Try ni Macy Gray, It Means Nothing ng Stereophonics, Against All Odds ni Phil Collins, It Might Be You ni Patti Austin, Heartbreak Warfare at Friends, Lovers or Nothing ni John Mayer, Here is Gone ng Goo Goo Dolls, Thinking of You ni Katy Perry, Rewind ni Paolo Nutini, I Fall to Pieces ni Patsy Cline, Everybody Hurts ng REM, One ng U2, An Ex is an Ex for A Reson ng the Courteneers, Wasted Time ng The Eagles, How Can You Mend a Broken Heart ni Al Greene, Go Your Own Way ng Fleetwood Mac, Migraine ng Moonstar 88, I Know It’s Over ng The Smiths, Ikaw Lamang ng Silent Sanctuary, Something to Say ng Harem Scarem, Ikaw Ang Lahat sa Akin ni Martin Nievera, Set You Free ng Side A at maraming maraming marami pang iba.

Wala tayong magagawa. Emo nga daw ako. Hindi bitter, excuse me. Sa totoo lang, I’m ok. People change, memories don’t, ika nga. Kung may listahan ako ng mga Saksak Puso Tulo ang Dugo na mga kanta, meron din naman akong listahan para sa aking hopeless romantic side.

At dahil diyan, isang araw, gagawan ko rin iyong ng post. Tatawagin ko iyo na The Parinig Playlist.

And with that, iniiwan ko ang quote na ito para sa inyo:

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Pahabol na SPTD song…

listening to: Iron & Wine – Always On My Mind

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by Iya Santos on September 16, 2011  •  Permalink
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Posted by Iya Santos on September 16, 2011

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