Stalker, Stalkee


I couldn’t help but stare at this fresh-faced Assumptionista seated in front of me yesterday morning. I thought, her parents must be both great-looking to have produced a pretty little thing like her. I watched her the whole BF Pque – Makati trip. I watched her read a fat blue book. She was probably cramming for her finals. I followed her eyes move across the pages. Pretty doe eyes rimmed with long lashes. I noticed her lips were a purrty, dainty shade of pink– sans the lipgloss! She was unfazed despite the disturbing noise and cranky people around her. I was envious of her odd calmness.

Then the unexpected happened. She closed the fat blue book and reached for her cellphone, still unfazed. She was intently texting for a minute or two. Her white, slender thumb’s one quick texter. Suddenly, fat tears rolled down her cheeks, but her expression did not change. Little miss perfect and her perfect consistent composure.

She put her phone back in her bag and continued reviewing for her finals. She only wiped her tears when the shuttle reached Greenbelt-Landmark, where she got off for school. She got off the shuttle as if nothing happened.

My envy meter shot up as I assumed that the SMS that made her cry was from her boyfriend. Unlike her, I am in a state of self-conscious distress. And unlike her, I have not shed tears yet.

I wonder how she does it. Maybe it would be nice if we got together. Maybe we can exchange stories of love and hatred. I’ll ask her next time. I wouldn’t have trouble recognizing her, not because her image is stamped in my mind, but because I took pictures of her.

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Stalker-ish? Yeah, yeah. I thought this shuttle story’s blog-worthy. So sue me.

Little did I know that after being a “stalker” in the morning, I’d be a “stalkee” in the afternoon.


I was sick and quietly multitasking around 3pm yesterday when I received an e-mail (with attached images!) from a deranged character who accused me of being a foolish whore.

Weh. If you know my anonymous basher, kindly tell her to scrutinize my San Beda and UP Diliman transcripts and inspect my Facebook Characterize application to have an idea of how ridiculously smart I am. Haha.

Oh, and please tell her I don’t charge money for ***.

Her “friend” might have forgotten to tell her that.


listening to: Estelle feat Kanye West – American Boy

Crank it up. Give it to me. Come on.

The disappointing thing was, nobody got destroyed, drunk, hammered last Saturday. It would have been more disappointing if I didn’t have fun with my growing support group or if I didn’t make fun of a certain entity.

We drank until 5am. Saaaarap. Drinking while learning! :p I learned a bunch of things like…

* A Veneto pizza is good. I bought Double Pepperoni and Bacon Cheeseburger pizzas for us. Yummy na, affordable pa! My kind of food!

* Sachets of condiments are helpful during traffic.Tried and tested na ito ni Mickey. Lantakan ba naman ang packets of ketchup sa sobrang gutom. I would have done the same if I had a compartment full of asado sauce sachets. Hanap na lang ng papel, parang may siopao na. Hahaha!

The 2 Mickies of Malacca 

* I’m not heartbroken. I’m just an alcoholic. My current motto is: Atay muna bago puso. Cheers!

* The Tagalog of quarenta y cinco is not apatnapu’t lima. It’s porti-payb. Ayon ‘yan sa makabagong balarilang Filipino. Bwahaha!

* Be scared of She-man and the “monsters” of the universe. If you’re ugly and stupid, at least make sure that you’re nice. I have two words for you: redeeming factor.

Harlene, Janine and Ciara (Bwahaha!)

* You can’t force it, but you can fake it. No. I am not talking about orgasm. It has something to do though with… “Iniwan kita para mag-isip, hindi para ipagpalit ako!” to “Iniwan kita para mag-freshen up, hindi para tulugan ako!”

* Bugnay wine from Baguio is delish! I won’t ask for cacti pasalubong anymore. (Lalo naman lengua de gato!) From now on, Bugnay is what I’ll ask from Baguio-vacationing friends. Patience! Oh, and thanks to Jay for the wine.

Parang bote ng patis o! 

* Example of necrophilia, pedophilia and bestiality: mangrape ng patay na tuta. Uhhh… don’t ask me. Hanggang 5-minute dead na Justin Timberlake lang ang kaya ko.

* I have sick friends. Oh, but I love them! Hugs to Donnie, Jap, Matt, Oryx and Mickey. Kisses for Mickey for letting me use his space for the drinking sesh and for being nice to my barkada.

Ketchup Mickey, GranMa Iya and  Bugnay Donnie

* Butterscotch is made up of lahar and margarine. Ewan ko ba. Sinisiraan ni Oryx and Donnie ‘yung butterscotch na binebenta ni Eunice. But since I love butterscotch, kahit pa sabihin nila na may dinikdik na moth balls ‘yun, kakainin ko pa rin! Yesss… tibay!

* I’m exorcist-material. DAW. Ows? Para namang hindi eh… :p


listening to: Abigail – Let the Joy Rise

Support Group

Naaalala mo pa ba ‘yung ad dati ng Tanduay?
‘Yung nakatikim ka na ba ng kinse anyos?
Ang sagwa di’ba? Eh pa’no kung ang Gran Matador gumawa rin ng ad?
Nakatikim ka na ba ng GranMa?
Ewwwww di’ba?

GranMa and The Chasers… Haha!

Wheee! I love weeknight drinking sessions! Donnie and I went to Mickey’s to (try to) finish the remnants of his bday celeb. Workalcoholic kasi ako eh. Hahaha! We were joined by our longlost friend Matt. Matt is Mickey’s neighbor, our LSS colleague, eand my fellow iskolar ng bayan.

Iskang Iya and Iskong Matthew

Reminisced about highschool adventures and misadventures (Mickey, Donnie and I = Bene, Matt – Zobel), discussed the facets of advertising (actually sila lang kasi ako lang naiiba ang trabaho), and talked about old school tv programs and games (Bioman weapons, Annie of Shaider’s porn video, Magic Cards blah blah blah).


Mel and Sisha

I had a self-imposed curfew, told myself I should be home by 12mn, but I broke it just because I was having too much fun. I got home around 3. I’m looking forward to spending more time with them– espacially next week.

They are my new found support group. :p



listening to: Side A – Forevermore


Much as I don’t want to be angsty, forlorn, or downright pitiful, there are just some entities (e.g. a fukktard ex, broken promises, fabricated stories) continuously challenging my cheerful disposition. Mwehe.

Props to my friends who continuously transform my frown upsidedown.

😦 —-> 🙂


Saturday shift with Aiko Melendez… este Mommy Joyce pala. 


Mickey’s house with Patchu and Eunice (taking pic)



With my crushie slash busmate back in highschool, Mickey :p


Drinking 50-50 with Kram and Yo at N-Lo’s


Waiting for the next pitcher… Marlon, Yo, Me, and KC

I don’t want to get mad. I don’t even want to get even.  I just want to drink and be merry! Thank heavens for friends!


listening to: Mary J Blige – Fine

Moving on up.

The recently concluded week wasn’t spectacular in different levels, but it surely was better than this one.

I’m okay with not-so-spectacular. I’m just happy that I didn’t let the BS of last, last week get the better of me. I’m moving on up. Going where I’m supposed to go.

Pero hindi naman masyadong up. Heaven na ‘yun eh. :p


Yehey! I’m done with my me-time! Hindi na ako uli antisocial! 🙂

Tuesday night with Mea
kaladkarin, just socially active.

Sunday Beauty Bonding with Joel
After ranting about the quasi break-up

Saturday midnight with Anton
Hulaan niyo naman kung ilang taon na siyang nabubuhay sa mundo!

Saturday night with Joko (and Miki & Carla)
We ate at Le Grand and that deserves a separate post.

Sunday noon with Jap
Before meeting up with Donnie at BoNa

Seems that I’m just going around in circles. But trust me, I am moving on up. 🙂


listening to: Eve – Cowboy 



Someone reminded me that I should bring back the child in me so that I’d feel the yuletide excitement again. So I did.

Mmmm-hmmmm… family, friends, ice cream, carols, gifts and a whole lot of attention.  🙂

Amazing. I was un-scrooged! This Christmas is drama-free and happy. 😀

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Too bad I hafta go to work tomorrow. Hehe.

Merry Christmas to all!


listening to: Mariah carey – All I Want for Christmas  


Ito ang gabi ng sabay-sabay.



Sabay naghalo ang init ng ulo ko at pag-aalaala kay Kapatid na Joel nung hinihintay ko siya sa Tides para uminom. Usapan naman kasi alas-9. Aba, perfect! Dumating ng 10:00!

Nung panahong hinihintay ko siya, pinagsabay-sabay ko rin kinain ang grilled frankfurter, nachos at sizzling mushrooms. Pathetic ng konti, kasi mag-isa ako. ‘Yung babae nga sa kabilang table, parang gusto sabihin sa akin na, “Miss, kawawa ka naman mag-isa ka dyan. Wala siguro gusto sumama sa iyo, kasi ang takaw mo!” Hehe.

Pinagsabay ko rin ang Sunrise at Blue Crush. May tequila ang Sunrise. May vodka ang Blue Crush. Eh sira talaga ang ulo ko, kasi alam ko namang magkaka-amats ako ‘pag pinagsama ko ‘yung mga ‘yun.

May sumipang konting amats sa akin sa pakikipagchikahan kay Joel. Ayos naman kasi mas masaya magkwentuhan ‘pag may tama na.

Tapos, nagtext sa akin si Howie. Punta daw sila ng Porch. Sama daw ako. Eh ayoko pumunta dun dahil kasama ko si Joel. Steady na ako sa Tides. So sabi niya, sila na lang daw ni Ed ang punta sa Tides.

Hindi ko naman pag-aari ang Tides, kaya kung gusto nila pumunta eh hindi ko sila mapipigilan di’ba?

Kaya ayun. Sabay dumating si Ed at Howie. Ok na sana eh. Tamang kulit kasi si Ed. Nagpaplano pa kami nung paano gantihan ‘yung tumarantadong asshole sa kaibigan ko. Kaso lang, si Howie umasshole rin.

Paano? Bakit? Pinagdiskitahan na boyfriend ko daw si Joel. Eh hello? Kapatid ko ‘yun. At ano naman ngayon kung kasama ko boyfriend ko? At ano rin ngayon kung wala akong boyfriend? At ano rin ngayon kung ang status (ng utak) ko eh nasa gitna nung dalawang nauna?

At dahil na-establish na hindi ko bf si Joel. Pagdating ni Sandro, siya ang pinagdiskitahan.

Nung sinabi ni Joel na, “Nandito na si Sandro!” halong disbelief at joy ang naramdaman ko. Eh kasi naman, kala ko binubullshit lang ako ni Joel na baka sumunod siya. At sabi ko rin, ‘wag na pasunurin kasi baka bumulagta pa ‘yun sa pagod. Mahirap magbuhat.

Ayun. Ok na sana eh. Gusto ko sana magcatch-up, magpacute, maglambing, mang-asar, magwhatev, but noooooo… may epal sa tabi-tabi. Ang nakakainis pa dun, hindi ko in-expect na asshole si Howie. Kaya mas nakakabwiset. Sinabihan ko pa siya na wag ng humirit dahil magulo na nga. Wag ng dumagdag. Pero nagtatatalak pa rin siya dun. Nanadya pa rin.

So sa tingin ko naman, deserving siya na pinagdududuro at pinagmumumura ko siya doon. Pero slight lang. Baka ma-ban pa ako ng Tides, mahirap maghanap ng panibagong venue para sa birthday ko. Hehe.

Ah basta. Hindi ko alam kung bitter siya o confused. Or baka both.

So after mag-init ang ulo ko, keri na rin kasi napalamig naman ni Joel, Sandro and Ed. Haha so ‘yun nga. Si Howie lang talaga ang salarin.

Uwian time na at sumabay kami ni Joel kay Sandro. Na-prove ni Joel kung gaano siya ka-supportive na friend. Na-prove ko rin na smart talaga si Mr.Lopa at pagdating sa kanya, nagkakaron ako ng episodes ng kabobohan.

Pero binibintang ko pa rin ang mga nasabi kong hindi dapat sa pagsasabay ko ng tequila at vodka.


Sinabay kong i-blog ito habang nagko-callouts.

Sino nagsabi na hindi ako champion multitasker?

Haha. Ako pala.


listening to: J Holiday – Bed

The Weekend That Was

Because I’ve been feeling used, misused, abused, taken for granted, repressed and borderline depressed for the past few, I had to do things and see people to keep me sane. Or at least make me seem sane. Didn’t really work, actually. Madness is difficult to mask. :p Oh well, here’s a hodge-podge of the weekend that was.

After Friday’s shift, I went to a Tunog Kalye thingie in Blue Wave. It took forever for my cousin to follow because of the Makati traffic and her Pong Pagong ways, but all went well. I was psyched to see her. The people we were with still found it hard to believe we’re related. Mukha kasi s’yang mabait. And ako… well… mukha akong… naughty. ‘Wag naman salbahe. :p


James and Ate Bec


fresh from work Moi and fresh from L.A. Marc (L.A.? Lower Antipolo?)

Twas fun to see long lost acquaintances in Blue Wave. It’s been so long since I last kicked it with a band. (Haha. Kicked what? I kicked asssss!!!) Basta. Wala na ako alam. Sorry na. Balik R&B ako eh.

Then 12ish, G dropped by. I didn’t expect that he would since I was so used to plans getting canceled and shit. Don’t get me wrong. I understand perfectly. GF muna bago lahat. Ako rin naman eh. BF muna bago lahat. (Di’ba Donne, ikaw una sa lahat? Hahaha!) Anyhoodles, goodie that he followed. It’s been almost a year since we last saw each other. It’s still hard for me to believe that he’s ( a bit) serious about life now.

No biggie. I’m just happy I saw him again. Masaya mang-asar. (Lomo! Lomi!) He had to meet up with his guy friends and see the gf pa after. Isn’t that sweet? Nagbagong buhay na talaga! *roll eyes* Hehehe!


I and G . Friendship is possible.

Sabi ko nga. Things change, people change, situations change. Guess what remains the same. If you guess it right, may premyo ka sa akin. Si Ate Bec lang malamang makakasagot. Afterall, siya lang naman ang nakakaalala. Hahaha!

(Ok, ok. Inside joke. :p)

Blah blah blah, got to drink Stong Ice after Strong Ice again. Pucha. Balik sa ginagawang tubig ang beer. This is bad. Somebody, stop me! If no one can stop me, join me in drinking na lang. Hehe.

Saturday was tiring I went to work with barely 2 hours of sleep. Tipong, hangover na maka-untog sa pader ang ulo na sakit. I spent a couple of minutes in the clinic for a health break. (Translation: nap) After the nap and a bowl of Chowking Wanton Soup, I was ok. Ready pa sana for action, but I knew I just had to go home and rest.

So I went home early Saturday night and spent my time, conceptualizing my personalized gifts for people dear to me. 🙂 Yeah. The wall or table question has something to do with my gift. It’s wholesome, mind you, just so you don’t get weirded out.

Sunday. I went shopping with my parents in ATC. It was a bit depressing since I didn’t get to buy anything for myself. Puro pang-Christmas gifts. 😦 Not that i don’t want to buy stuff for people. Just that I’m desperate to buy new shoes. Bwiset lang that my feet are too big. Laging walang size for me. Bwiset. Bwiset!!! Dapat talaga, nung bata ako nagfumeeling na lang ako na Chinese at pinagsuot ako ng sapatos na bakal. Mala-Lotus Feet…

Razon’s halo-halo lang ang nakapagpasaya sa akin sa ATC. first time ko lang kasi makain. Yum! Perfect halo-halo for me who’s not really a fan of uber sweet concontions. Four ingredients lang pero super sarap. Now I have a reason to go back to ATC’s foodcourt.



When I was waiting for my Mom to finish shopping, I went to Delifrance for my favorite Classic Capuccino. I already invited people for my 19th birthday salubong. Sana lang, mag-confirm na at least 3/4’s of my barkada/tropa so that I can reserve the function room of Tides.

Tides. So I went there with Jayvee tonight. Siguro naman from Online Buddy/Pseudo-neighbors pwede na kaming maging Friends. Especially after meeting the Captain Water and his crew. Haha.

I’m officially in love with Tides’ Sunrise. It’s pineapple-orange juice plus a splash of Jagermeister. 🙂


Sunday Night Dweenkeeng

And yeah, about love. since I’ve been asked around 10x this weekend how my lovelife is, let me repeat…


What a fun, funny, tiring weekend.

I better sleep now. May pasok pa ako bukas. Errr… mamaya pala. And God knows how much I hate Mondays again.


The rest of the pictures are in my Multiply, naka-privy. They’re only for people who can relate and people who have a long patience for my kababawan and my kabaliwan.


listening to: Marcy Playground – Sex and Candy

Wednesday Unsober Kwento

Like I said in the previous entry, Wednesday was going to suck big time. Well, it did. I hated yesterday am. It was appalling in different levels. But since I asked God “ibalato niyo na po sa akin ang Wednesday”, He took pity on me and made my pm f-u-n. 🙂

Sup Wiley bought a Toffee Nut Frappe for me because I won a contest. Wahah. Coffee and picture taking- good combo to reduce stress. Really.


When I found out that I wouldn’t be able to watch Enchanted, I decided to go to Antipolo instead. But I didn’t want to consider a sleepover in QC, so I just followed Donne in Ice VodkaGreenbelt. While he was on a meeting, I spoke with Chris over the phone and asked him if he already watched Enchanted.

“Why? Are you asking me out?”
“Lul mo. I was just going to ask if it’s good. Kung ikaw lang, yayayain na lang kita uminom noh. Tssssh.”
“I don’t want to watch that movie anyway.”
“Even if you do, I ain’t watching it with you.”
“Haha. Manood ka mag-isa.”
“Mukhang ganon na nga. Haha. Sira ulo ka ha.”

After Donne’s meeting and my kulitan with Chris, we headed back to BF. Tides.

I saw 2 of my long lost friends. KC and Kiwi!



I also reunited with Strong Ice. And Sunrise!

Talked about hosting and how to entertain a crowd, casual sex (I had to cover my virgin ears,) and old friends breaking up.

Blah blah blah. I’m a bit buzzed now, so excuse me for the kababawan.

An all-time important person in my life told me he’s going to my birthday! Haha, that is if I celebrate it on the 20th. :p La lang. I’m just surprised that he promised to go. (But what is a promise, really?!) Wheee. Gift! I think I know what I want from him. Hehe. (No, pervert. Not that.)

I finally admitted to Donnie that I think about ___ 75% of the time. Blank is not a name of a person, mind you.

When I arrived home, I saw these on our dining table.


Awwww… 🙂 I didn’t expect that Jay would still get these for me. Yep. Cactus with pink flowers (blossoming na) and wine. (I didn’t ask for wine pala. Sinama lang n’ya.) I’m impressed. That’s it. Walang follow-up. Di ko pa napa-process. Saka na ‘pag sober na ako. Hehe.

At wala ng pakialaman kung bakit kelangan ang cactus galing Baguio. Dum bi dum.

Goodnight, world!


listening to: Usher – You Make Me Wanna

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